SeaHeart

Last night, I was meditating before I began my ecstatic dance practice. It was a simple heart opening meditation...my hands were placed on my heart, I was thinking about what I wanted to bring to the practice, I was opening my heart to the Goddess. When I do ecstatic dance (which is sadly rare now, as I often do belly dance instead of ecstatic dance...I used to balance the two out much better, but things go in cycles, I suppose), I do it as an offering to the Goddess, and I was opening my heart in gratitude and love to Her...

I wasn't prepared for what happened next.


I'd opened my heart wide, and was feeling open and grounded and just filled with love, ready to begin dancing, when I felt something shift, quickly and strongly, and all of this knowledge poured into me. It's been awhile since I received an entire book, downloaded just like that, but I knew the feeling of it, and hung on as I was filled with a title, chapters, the entire feeling of it in an instant. My own conversations with Jenn and others came back to me, replaying at high speed, and I ended, thrumming, where I'd begun...sitting, hands over heart. I burst into tears, as I felt the Goddess smiling at me, loving me...and Her eyebrow raised, and said--impishly: "Well?"

"There are no books for lesbian witches..."
"Don't you find it interesting that almost everyone we know who is Pagan is also a woman loving woman? Not just lesbian but bi, poly...everything."
"Why isn't there more material for this? Women have nowhere to turn..."
"I'm so frustrated and angry at the lack of balance. There is SO MUCH OUT THERE for the gay male witch, but nothing for us!"
"I could do it...I could write that book...I just don't have time."
"It should have been written before now..."
"But none exist."

And the Goddess said: Well? What are you waiting for?

I've been working on a non-fiction Pagan book for awhile, ironing out chapters, but haven't felt it's the right time for such a thing yet in my life. But this, and now, is perfect. I have the title: Her Goddess: Witchery for Women who Love Women, I have the chapters, I know what it's supposed to cover, including ecstatic ritual and drawing down the Goddess as a woman who loves a woman, the Great Rite in a woman/woman perspective, rituals, spells, how to introduce your partner to your spiritual practice, prayers, daily practice...it's all there, like the manuscript is in my head. This has happened for fiction books, but never for anything non-fiction.

Everything sharpened into such clarity, and I felt such an outpouring of love and support, and I began to cry. I called to Jenn, and she came over and held my hands while I told her the story, and what I knew I had to do...and she hugged me and told me it was perfect, and that of course I had to do it, which made me cry even more, because my wife is the most incredible, supportive, loving woman on the face of this planet, and I'm endlessly grateful for her, and I love her. ;;;;;;;;-;;;;;;;;;;

I'm not going to start writing it now, but I will get down the outline and general feel of the chapters in outline form...I must finish either Bite or Twixt first before I begin another project...I'm at my two max at this point, but the finishing isn't far off for either of them.

I absolutely had to share this. I'm ecstatic about it, feel so sure and certain and absolutely and utterly loved.

There's a lot to cover, but with Her divine inspiration, I think I can get this right~ <3333

So! Question! What would YOU like to see in a Pagan book for women who love women (notice it's not just lesbian...this is for ALL women who love women, regardless of labels)? I want to take into consideration ideas that might not have been in this original outline, and I felt I needed to ask. <3